Something Beautiful

Dear Something Beautiful-

A lot of stuff has been going on in my life lately which includes some life changes that have been difficult for me to deal with.  Life does go on regardless and I realized that a lot of pain in life is caused by what I think life should be and what it actually is.  It took a long time to come to this conclusion, but now it's just a matter of living by what I learned.  Yes, there are a lot of things that I thought should have happened, but they didn't and the more I fight that, the more difficult life will be.  I am taking life more as it comes at me now, preparing for what I can, but more just enjoying what this crazy obstacle of life really is and rolling with the punches.

Part of this accepting life for what it is, is allowing myself to enjoy the things that happen instead of taking it so seriously. I don't need permission to enjoy something and I think I feel guilty a lot, like I don't deserve it or I am being selfish.  I am not waiting for permission anymore and I am living my life as I want to. I am no accident, we are all put on this Earth for a reason and we are a once in a lifetime occurence.  We owe it to ourselves, others and God to be exactly who we are.

One of the things I have been doing is finding something beautiful every day.  I read an inspiring story that lead me to contemplate life and what is really the small stuff that is important.  To me, life does not get much more peaceful than animals and nature.  These are some of the "things" that make me happy.  I was taking a jog today through my usual route and noticed as I was running in, the two swans that are native to my apartment complex.  I've seen these swans many times before, but I never stopped to really look.  I stopped this time, walked over to the edge of the pond and gazed at these two swans who were peaceful and content, floating through the water with their own reflection in front of them.  It was the most beautiful site. A comforting sense of calmness settled over me and I knew from that moment, I'm going to be OK.  God is going to take care of me and although I don't know where or what will happen tomorrow, I am going down the right path and I am exactly where I should be.

The lovable,
Rebecca